Asking permission to go out
My AH rarely goes out as he perfers to drink at home. However, as you all know this is Super Bowl Sunday, so he asked "permission" to go and meet a friend at a bar to finish watching the game. I "gave" it to him know he would drink anyway, even though there is a chance that if he doesn't control himself he might get caught (and a small part of me almost wishes he would). I feel guilty by letting this one night go by without him drinking at home and being out and possibly behind the wheel with one too many. Then again, he may not spare me anyhow and drink only a little at the bar and finish his binge when he gets home. I am new here and drinking has only become a very bad problem in my home over the past year (he quit drinking before we married and after a near fatal accident I had), so even though I have been with him for 7 years, I was completely unaware of the emotional manipulation an addict can cause their loved ones - sheesh.
Sorry to rant, but I'm feeling both angry and guilty at the same time.