I have written many letters over the years. Many of them I sent.
When I was at the top of the mountain of pain, I wanted to say,
"More than anything my parents ever did, more than my stepmother, more than Allan (my ex-husband), more then the man who molested me, you hurt me. You hurt me more than anyone."
But what I would write today, is probably,
"I always wanted to be the one person in your life who would not leave you, but I simply couldn't be myself and be with you. I always believed you could do it, and live the full and beautiful life waiting for you. I always believed in you. But you did not believe."