Welcome, and hope you use this forum to continue your "education" because it is your power to change your life. Read everything you can get your hands on, go to Al-Anon, and learn to pray - even if its only the Serenity Prayer.
The hardest thing I deal with is forcing myself to slow down and take it one day at a time. I understand the concept but doing it is difficult! There feels like A LOT of stuff to clean up and move on from, but if I focus on EVERYTHING, I lose sight of me in the process. Try to get through one day, then another, then another. It took a long time for you to get here; only time and healing will carry you forward to get into a new place in your universe.
You are not alone. Take good care!