"If you can get to a place where you are able to accept the situation (without understanding it or approving of it), you will start to know peace and be able to go on with the great life out there that is waiting for you."
I think you hit the nail right on the head. I feel the need to understand the reason. Maybe if I know the reason I know how he can be fixed. And that's the part of my disease that I need to let go of because it is holding me back. Thank you for helping me see more clearly.