thanks Thumper. So interesting, its like the 5th time I heard that quote about courage in the past few weeks. I thing someone is trying to tell me something? LOL.
Him leaving the house in May was so difficult. I lost my appetite, started losing my hair! I think it was a depression that I tried so hard to hide from my kids. Tried to put on a strong face. But having gone through that, I know I can make this final step. This one last detatchment. I know I can. It is just hard. It hurts. I know things happen for a reason, maybe our separation had to happen as sort of a practice for me. Now that I know I can handle the day to day without him (the good and bad), I know I can live all of my days without him.
We all deserve better than the slim pickings an active alcholic feeds us. Its amazing to keep being confronted with the fact that I am the only one who can change My life.