If it was me I would go back to that dreadful night when XABF arrived to my house drunk demanding sex. I wish I had told myself: "You are NOT a call girl. You are
TC999". I would have yelled him to get the hell away and let me, this wonderful woman, get her sleep.
But no, I opened, glad someone paid me any attention
left with him to a party. Tried to have sex with XABF in his car but he fell asleep. In the morning, tried to convince him not to drive. Drived him safely to his home. Forgot my Sunday plans. When I stayed by his side, on his bed, he asked "don't you have anything else to do?". I wish I had answered "yes", left and never came back. Oh well.
Thanks for letting me vent.
Hugs Cyranoak... I felt sad reading your thread. I would like you to know that this thread and your other posts have made a huge impact in my life. Thank you for sharing and I hope you and your kids keep healing.
PS coyote, you are breaking this legacy.