Originally Posted by
Idul 
Thanks for the advice. I have called the DV hotline and am taking as many safety precautions as I can. I have a lot of guilt for feeling so selfish right now, but I really have very little to give at the moment.
I know exactly what you are dealing with. It is very tough. After leaving my XAH my brothers expected me to go and live with our father on the other side of the country to be his caregiver. I went for a visit (it was a disaster) my father, feeling very vulnerable and lonely wanted me to sleep in his bed with him. It was heartbreaking. I felt so bad for him. He had become senile and demented and was like a little lost child. I couldn't do that for him and felt mean and heartless to leave and return to the west coast. He died about 6 weeks later and I still choke up thinking how he thought I had abandoned him. Life can be so hard......
Now I tend to keep others at arms length because closeness costs too much.
Take care of you and hopefully your family will do the same for themselves.