suave75

Hi

My fiance is an alcoholic and an addict. He has been clean and sober since Jan 11, 2011. He is doing 90 in 90.

A few days after christmas he had been drinking all day. He then went and brought drugs into my house. I had to kick him out. He live on the streets for over a week. I let him come home when he said he would get help.

He has been going to meeting every day. I started alanon.

I am always scared he is going to relaspse. I have weird dreams about him doing drugs. I even dreampt that I relaspsed and I don't have a problem with alcohol or drugs.

I am planning to get alanon literature as soon as I can afford it. I am trying to be supportive to my fiance. He seems very commited.
I believe alanon says I am suppose to take care of me. I just don't know how. I feel very alone most days. I am shy and its hard to break out of my shell.
Thanks for letting me share.