(((hugs)))
Let's see: You've got three kids and a job, and you're separated and attending Al-Anon and reading and thinking and growing... that sounds like a LOT to deal with at once.
There's nothing you
should do. Or
shouldn't. It's also late January, which is a hard time of the year for many people. I know I've just in the past couple of weeks felt like hibernation would be a fantastic idea.
My advice? Keep on keeping on. Try to turn your attitudes around when you can. Keep a gratitude journal: Find five things every night to be grateful for. And don't beat yourself up. If you don't want to do a weekly date with AH, don't.