I always noticed how my Aw used to be so over the top in her actions. She would be too nice or too angry or just generally behave in the extreme.
This is me.
It's weird to be this way.
I am 100% sober a couple of years now. (No, I don't know the date. I don't keep track.) I realize I don't experience my feelings the same as everyone else. I don't know if I have joy like others do or if my joy is just mania or overreacting. My brother used to tell me I was a simpleton because I was joyous over simple things. Maybe people think I am stupid??
When something happens in my life, when someone else does something, I overreact. I overdramatize. I slam doors. I throw things. I cry. I yell. I smoke. Why do I do these things? Do I have some mental illness?
Or is this because I am an alcoholic?
I don't know.