Ever feel like you are on the outside looking in?
Hi all,
It hit me after reading a lot of posts in the last days that as I look at my life, it is though I am on the outside of a window looking into a life that I dont recognize. Maybe it is because I havent been down this road very long, but I think of my life before this new normal set in, and things really arent that bad. Is this self denial of what is really going on? I long for those days where I couldnt wait to get home, instead of wondering how softly I am going to have to walk on those eggshells later in the evening. I find myself checking the kitchen counter first thing when I get home to see if there is a new bottle of wine there, hoping there isnt, but knowing there will be. I just wish I look at my AW in eyes and tell doesnt she see what is going on and her say Yes your right, lets go back to what we had....
grizz