Welcome! I can only repeat what everyone else has said so far. Keep reading here, keep posting and don't forget, you don't have to find a solution today. Things don't have to change today. Try to make today, this hour, this minute about just you. One minute, one hour, one day at a time....
I also wanted to recommend a Melody Beattys book 'Codependent no more'. Many here have read and re-read it. It's a must read and it has helped me restore my sanity.