welcome Joboo to SR, as you've already found there is a lot of support and wisdom here.
Glad to hear you're going to see a Dr to supervise you're detox.
As others have all said l think every alcoholic has at some time tried "controlled drinking" for me it's not about having one or two with a meal for me "1's too many and 100 not enough, l only drank to black out and have no delusions about that.
l too have embrased sobriety and everything it offers me, no not easy at times but it has gotten easier. Every morning l wake up with a clear head and clear conscience, l love my life today.
No one achieves success without the help of others. The wise and confident acknowledge this help with gratitude. Alfred North Whitehead.