Hi Jo!! I know from my own experience..you have to REALLY want to stop drinking more than any urge to drink to make this transition to sober life. I did one relapse and was so p!ssed because I went to a birthday party and decided to shoot some shots. wtf..started my count all over again and will NEVER look back. I think we all try it. I wanted to tell you that anxiety you are feeling..hopefully it will leave you once you get some days sober. Mine did..I was starting to think I was full blown nutcase with the "anxiety attacks" (in quotes because they were actually part of hangover days) and it all left once I put my bottles down. You will start feeling some peace like you have never known after you string some time together..hang in there..and WELCOME! I use SR daily..great place for support and knowledge!!!