Finally, No More Defending Myself
This is a great forum.
It is much better for me to be able use this forum for help and support w/out being told that I will fail if I don't give everything up to God and follow AA's 1 steps and attend AA meetings.
I am glad that those things work for other people, but they do not work for me at all, actually does me more harm than good.
This place is going to be very helpful for me and I want to thank everyone for posting.