Change is so scarey - I have to get sober before and my emotions always seem to get the best of me... I drank to forget - and then just a few months ago I had about 2 months this was back in May... Then I started to remember.... I know I do need medication. I am self medicating right now I am taking the lowest dose of Xanax every 8 hours - not only for withdrawl but I am having constant panic attacks... I self medicated with alchole for that too. I never took Xanax while I drank it's too risky. And I do not want to get hooked on that either. When I recently went to rehab I learned that it's a Benzo just like Librium. So it's helping. But I still feel sick. Just not as sick if I weren't taking them.