Perhaps some individual counseling would help. A counselor that specializes in addictions is worth their weight in gold. Not all counselors area good fit so if you have one, or didn't have good luck with one, try a different one. I think the important thing would be to figure out why you are feeling this way. You can't act in your best interest until then. A good counselor would help, especially if al-anon is a not a good fit.