The HP thing is hard for me too. I still just want to back out of many of the beliefs I have developed, thinking they are just too illogical, etc. Praying is a good step, though. Pray to whatever's there, whatever you've been told is there, whatever, just pray!
I need to pray more, in earnest, it is easy to get caught up and just pray when you need things, and that is old behavior, IMO.
Glad to hear you have a sponsor who holds you accountable, I do too, it's nice to have someone who doesn't co-sign on your BS, it's a reality check for me.
I think the 9th step promises are supposed to come true after we make all our amends-- it's a process, I'm sure it doesn't happen overnight.
Hope you feel better!