4 months sober and feeling pretty down
Today is 4 months sober! It has been a long, but productive, ride. I've got a job, I'm back in school, I'm paying off people I stole from, making amends, and all of the recovery stuff. I've been really down the last week or so and just wondering if sobriety is worth it. The only thing getting me through it is realizing that if I go back to using I'll have NOTHING. But at this point I'm having a hard time caring.
It's just such a rollercoaster ride. Two weeks ago I had the best week of my life and now after the last 7 hellacious days I'm wondering if I'm going crazy or if this is just part of the process. It's not the first time this has happened. And I KNOW that everytime I have these bad streaks I come out feeling better than ever, but it just doesn't seem like a fair trade off.
When do these 'promises' start coming true...