The idea that I could control my AH and control what others thought of us/him = insanity. But I tried to "manage" everything and hide our secret. What a waste of energy that was and what a RELIEF to not stress on it anymore.
i used to believe this with every fiber of my being.
i think i used to get migraines trying to use my mind to control other people.
what can i say, what can i do, to distract, avoid, evade, destroy evidence.
and this was after I got sober.
good googly moogly,
i was craaaaaaazzzzzyy!
