Welcome back and keep on posting.
I don't want to go to al-anon either so I simply come here and post and read, etc.
I also see a therapist and she helps me keep my questions clear. She's a sounding board and advocate for my emotions and a coach to help me deal with things differently.
Do you have some hobbies that you'd like to pick back up or learn something new? Engaging your creative side is very therapeutic. At least for me.