Hi Rosyln
Welcome to SR
I second the advice about medical supervision - detox can sometimes be dangerous.
It's the responsible thing to get help.
I was afraid of people knowing my secret too - my pride, and fear, kept me from getting help for many years - and so nothing changed.
Alcoholism is progressive...and so I got worse...
Your life is simply more important than anything else, Roslyn. Don't let your fear try and convince you otherwise
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