Originally Posted by
MissGuided 
Ahhh and the guilt comes a-creeping back.....
Unless you held him down, tied him up, or disabled him in some other way, then poured the drink down his throat and made him swallow day after day, you have absolutely nothing to feel guilty about!
Please believe that.
As difficult as it is to come to terms with, he has done this by himself.
Alcoholism is an illness, yes, I believe that, but he could choose to stop it.
You can't stop it for him, and you never could have.
I'm so sorry you're going through this and having to see how he is right now, but none of it is your fault, and nothing you did could change it.