If I do something that I have doubts about, something that isn't feeling "right", it can play with my thoughts and emotions in a very negative way.
I left my AH after 27 years, and didn't consider divorce as an annulment was not on the cards, so figured "why bother?"
It was AH who instigated divorce action, 4 years later.....sending me the papers via my daughter, instead of a bailiff.....and I decided to let him have it, if he felt it that necessary.