StarCat...logically I understand and agree with everything you have said. This is all so fresh for me and it will take me some time to get out of "world of crazy" thinking patterns. I can't help that I somehow feel that I must "caretake" his addiction/behavior in an effort to control my uncontrollable environment. It will be a huge moment for me and a step in the right direction when I say "No, I am not going." and that is exactly what I am going to do. I am tired of feeling like a babysitter for his drunk behavior/actions. You are right, if he screws up, it's his own doing not mine, but the codie girl in me is going to somehow feel that its something I could have prevented or controlled even though intellectually I know its impossible to control. Ugh!!! So frustrating! I just want to stop feeling that way!
