He's out, so you will not have regular, daily contact with him. Right now, that's what you need.
It's hard to sort through all the feelings you have and figure out the best course of action when you're still right in the middle of the insanity. Now that you have some peace and quiet to think, you can start sorting out yourself, and then figure out what the real you wants to do.
Any decisions made now are suspect, because you're not yourself yet.
You're doing the right thing. Take your time, take care of yourself, and make the decisions once your head is clear.
Right now, just relax, and breathe. <3