(((((Sasha))))))
I am glad you found us, but very sorry for why you had to. Keep your keyboard handy and post as often as you need to, want to, or don't want to. Do as much reading as you can of other threads and the 'stickys' on this forum.
You have found a great place with lots of Experience, Strength and Hope (ES&H) from others who have been or are where you are now.
One thing I would definitely suggest for you and your little one, is get paternity established with the court and get court ordered child support from the Family Court in California. That order will help you at the 'welfare' office to get 'support' for your little one in the form of food stamps, WIC (Women, Infants and Children) medical care, and the state giving you the child support and going after him. It's called CONSEQUENCES for HIS ACTIONS.
In the meantime, please keep posting and let us know how YOU are doing as we do care so very much.
Love and hugs,