Originally Posted by
Rayn3dr0p 
You know, penny, and this is going to sound strange, but the last time I broke no contact with AXBF was one of the best decisions I have made. I came away from it with yet another glimpse of how ignorant, manipulative, and utterly lost in addiction he is, and more importantly, I even surprised myself. I was able to walk away after only a week, and now I feel more certain than I ever have before that leaving him was the right thing to do.
It sounds like you got a glimpse of this too when you heard the a$$hole-ish tone of his voice message. Don't beat yourself up about it. Sometimes we learn the most from what seem like mistakes at the time.
I certainly hope I feel like that very very soon - at the moment, he's stripped me of all self confidence that I believe him when he tells me its all my fault, and I'm this and I'm that. Self confidence will come back slowly but surely. I guess thats part and parcel of life with an alcoholic. Thats why this site is so good for the soul LOL!!