Hi Lilly .... I'm a recovering alcoholic (19+ years) and can tell you that an alcoholic will drink as long as possible. An active alcoholic is like this: enormous ego, low self-esteem, self-centered in the extreme and grandiose. When there's no exit, no place to turn, no money left, we'll stop, at least temporarily. I can't imagine how difficult this is for you but you sound like a very strong wise person. I hope your son sobers up long enough to realize how lucky he is to have you for a mom.