I have a smilar problem and it is really hard for me to deal with. When I speak in front of groups I become super nervous to the point that I can barely talk. This happend long before AA but it makes it hard to speak my mind or even at all and I hate it. Even if they ask me to read the preable I started stuttering and turning red and completely loose it! It's funny because my close friends describe me as an extrovert as I am a social butterfly in small groups or one on one. Yet put me in front of like 10 people and I just can't do it. Then what blows my mind is my friend who considers herself an introvert and is very shy can speak in front of people at meetings with no problems at all, in fact she looks like a professional speaking. I guess everyone is differant, just wish I could talk better in meetings or any kind of group for that matter....