Not feeling that desperation of missing him is an eye opening experience for me. I still find myself getting angry at him for his behaviors because my expectations are still too high, he hasn't changed, not sure why I think he would. I am ok staying at home reading and not having to feel bad if I don't want to go to "his friend's" house and hang out while he drinks, or go out to a bar with friends who called and invited us, not so much friends of mine as his. I like myself, I am a good person, a better person without him. The pressure is off. I think in time I will meet someone but I am not worried or concerned or preoccupied about it. I remember thinking how lucky I was to not have to be single and looking for someone, this was about 2 years ago. Since then, my life has done a 360, I am actually looking forward for who might come into my life in the future. I don't like what he became and I was naive and in denial and now I am not. Now if I can just get myself to exercise........
