Hello dredre23, welcome to the SR NA step study forum.
I see this is your first post, and based on your questions, you've probably overlooked the NA sub-forums on each of the 12 steps. Many members here have posted their experiences, ideas and opinions on the steps there...you may want to check it out.
...how you did it and what the third step means to you?
The 3rd step simply says we
made a decision...so that's what I did...made a decision. So many of us interpret this step to say that we turned our wills and lives over, but that's not something that can occur immediately, and IMO it can take most of us a lifetime to do (if at all) because sell-will is ever-present. This step simply means to me that, because the NA program is God-given, I've decided to work (and live) it to the best of my ability. I follow up my decision with action by working the rest of the steps.
How do I get there? What am I supposed to do?
Stay clean a day at a time and continue working the steps.
WTF AM I DOING WRONG??
Comparing? There's is nothing wrong with wanting a strong "spiritual" awareness or connection with your HP, but it's important to understand that each of us gets to that place at our own pace. It will happen for you when it's suppose to.
G
ps. here's a couple of links to discussions on step 3 in the 3rd step forum:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-step-3-a.html http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...tep-three.html