i think you are doing GREAT atalose !
keep up the good work, and keep posting. it helps.
lost,
you are floundering. that is normal. you keep stopping by this site - we are rooting for you!
the bottom line one day will be: do i feel better when i am around him? is my life enhanced by him being in it?
in your heart of hearts, you will know the answer, it is listening to that voice that is so very tough.
on that day you will know that it doesn't really matter whether or not he benefits by having you in his life, or if you feel guilty for abandoning him. you will follow that voice.