I am really working hard on recovery, I know that i am going to have lots of ups and downs........as time goes by I am hoping to have alot less downs......and I know what is helping me........this site and lots of research..and marriage counseling (?) I think i have said before I think I am smarter then my MC.....lol If it doesnt work out this week....I am not going to waste my co-pay anymore.......this whole thing about starting over with a new counselor makes me sick.....I do not have the energy to start over with a new counselor.....I am going to continue to go to church.....and keep praying and keep focusing on me getting better.......