((((((((Breec))))))))
First of all, your husband is threatened by your recovery, plain and simple. The more knowledge and awareness you have, the more it scares him. You're rocking the boat and he doesn't like it one bit!
You don't sound like you're obsessed to me at all. I love reading your posts. You are starting to ask all the right questions and have an awareness and understanding of yourself that is so amazing and honest. You are growing and changing.
I remember early on reaching a point where I was tired of working on my recovery, tired of focusing on me, so I stopped. And it didn't take long for me to backslide. Now I'm grateful for trudging on. No matter how hard it is, I can look back and see the progress. You should be able to too.
Listen to your heart and keep doing what you feel is best for you.
Hugs,
JG