Originally Posted by
cutelittlewife 
I came to this forum looking for support and understanding, reassurance that I'm not a weak sucker who can't dump his sorry alcoholic cheating ass but keeps trying to forgive...
Let me reinforce this...You are NOT a weak sucker who can't dump his sorry, alcoholic, cheating ass. You are a wife. You are a mother. You are woman who is in love with an alcoholic. That doesn't make you weak. Heck...most of us have got to be strong beyond belief to endure some of the stuff we've dealt with. Infidelity doesn't have to be the end of a marriage. Relapse doesn't have to be the end of a marriage. But that is for YOU to decide. Not anyone at AlAnon. Not family. Not a friend. Not us.
I'm glad to hear that you are going to talk with a counselor. It will give you a chance to focus on YOU and YOUR feelings. One step at a time!