By the way, the Big Book's chapter "We Agnostics" is unadulterated ********. It's full of misrepresentation, false choices, circular logic, and typical cult-like arguments for why agnostics and atheists are misguided.
I tore it out of my book. You can do the same.
I have no belief whatsoever in any kind of supernatural god. I have been sober for over 20 years. Not believing in a god is not a reason to not find recovery.
You are not alone. I promise.