I can relate. I had to catch myself from getting all worked up, triggered too. It's hard. It's so tricky, we're all working very hard here
I hope you come back soon. For me, I learned to take deep breaths and come back later with acceptance.
Learnt that from Mike the fantastic helmit guy. And Givelove. And all the other wonderful mods here. They're working as hard as we are, to help keep us all sane while we're working. They all deserve medals or ice cream or something!