Penny, you didn't say where you normally post. However, it definitely sounds like the f&f forum should be one of your "homes". Growing up in a dysfunctional alcoholic home is a common reason for our addictions. Codependents are just as addicted to the alcoholic as the alcoholic is addicted to alcohol. I know, all to well, the feeling of "waiting for the other shoe to drop" and "sleeping with one eye open". "We aren't bad people trying to get good. We're sick people trying to get well." Feel free to drop by any time! :ghug3
Love and Peace,
Phoenix