These are some thoughts that have been rattling in my mind these past few days regarding my ending my relationship with the addict.
I feel a sense of relief as if a 230 pound weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I no longer feel a sense of obligation to him nor do I feel any guilt for making the decision I did and somehow it just doesn’t feel right – guess that’s the codie whispering in my ear – but I am tuning that out.
I also feel numb, like I don’t know what or how I should be feeling right now because about the only thing I do feel is that sense of relief.
I know the stages of grief and feeling numb is one of them, guess I am just anxious to move through the rest of them and not be stuck in numbness.
I need to share and open up more about my feelings as I have always keep them pretty closed in so thank you for allowing me this new opportunity.
Day 17 no contact!!!!!
