Yeah, its hard to leave because I keep thinking about the husband I HAD and can't quite let that go. My husband and I had a great nine year marriage but unfortunately we have been married 11 years! I want my old husband back, we have tons of great memories but that person is gone. I need to leave and am working on it but am so sad about it, for me and my kids. He was great to them too and they won't understand why he had to leave. Difficult all around but you are truly fortunate he's out of your life.