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You are not alone in this. I'm having a hard time adjusting to being a family of just me - I was with XAH for 18 years. It does get easier - this is my 3rd (!) Christmas without him and it still feels odd not to have our Christmas traditions together. I'm trying to create my own instead. It's a good thing to have your family there to lean on. Let them support you where they can and help you reclaim the season for just you. Keeping busy helped me too and it does sound like you will have your hands full!
Take care.