Hi Vicki,
You are not alone. We understand.
Remind yourself:
You did NOT Cause this!
You can't control this
You won't cure this.
You did NOT Cause him to cheat! You did NOT Cause him to cheat!
Can you go somewhere today? Removing yourself from the alcoholic quacking that will start later may help keep your head clear.
You deserve to be loved and respected.
You are important.
Your life matters.
How can we help you today?
Can you find an Alanon meeting nearby?
Do you have a counselor or friend you can call?
Hang around here and read and post as much as needed. We understand and we are here to support you!
(((hugs)))