welcome, hope, and it sounds like a really good step to be taking. we can only do so much at a time, and you are focusing on what you need to.
please feel free to post here whenever you need to - for me, often just the typing the words makes a big difference.
also, for me, that first step has been my sticking point. our minds are crafty, and we can be deceived just like the addict, into thinking things are a certain way when they are not.