hi allybick-
it would be best if you went without your mother to the alateen meeting. it's for you, not for her and it would probably keep you from being able to speak freely.
and there is no need to be scared. you don't even have to talk if you don't want to. everyone there is living with alcoholism and will understand you. you can just go and listen.
will your little sister be going with you?
naive