Leo,
You have such a positive attitude. I'm impressed that you stopped so quickly. We're all human. We all make mistakes. It's too much of a burden to have to be invincible.
Winter solstice is actually a cool Day 1. With each new day, a little more light.
I agree with Dee. It might help to work on what triggered the decisions to buy and drink alcohol.
And you still have 110 sober days. That's a lot of experience of how to be sober.
The holidays have been rough for me too around sobriety. Much harder than I expected. Took me by surprise.
Take care!
Stacy