I'm sorry you fell Leo but you got right back up.
For me the knockout blow was always when I decided to buy that beer - I was lost in that moment...popping the top, smelling the smell, taking the drink and figuring why not was always the inevitable follow through.
Those moments never came out of nowhere tho - although once I would have sworn they did. Sounds like you had a storm brewing for a while too?
If stress is a trigger for you, have you any ideas on how to combat that Leo?
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