You know dude...I understand what you posted..related to some of it. I am in a small town and it is packed with bars compared to the population. Bars and churches. People get drunk then go pray. It is a cycle I got caught up in for years. And I knew too..When I drank I was on a mission. It does really mess with your body and your head. I just feel so much better..the drawback is..I quit going or being with anything alcohol related. Won't subject myself to it and it is working good for me. I wish you the best..Welcome! This site is packed with helpful information and supportive people. I love it here..