failedtaper,
The hardest part for me was driving past my Dr's office on my way to work & knowing that all I had to do was place a call and get 240-30 mg oxycodone. I think what helped most was remembering the pain I was in detoxing & also attending a 12 step program. I had taken entire my last script in 5 days & decided to go CT. I was in agony for a long time, but I used them for about 8 years at very high doses. You just need to put the option out of your mind. I don't want to ever return to that shell of a life I was living, but the decision is all yours to make. I'm at 101 days & you could be too eventually if you want it. My life has improved dramatically. Good luck & hang tough.