aa, lot's of therapy, and recently contacted another therapist who just deals only with addiction issues. i'll probably go through iop again although i doubt it'll do any good. i'm really not trying to be pessimistic but history has repeated itself so many times and the need for alcohol has never totally ceased even when i've had really long stretches of sobriety. i don't feel like a failure. i'm not feeling sorry for myself but i am reaching a point that can only be described as giving up.